I do learn more every day. One can't
interfere with the lives of people; poverty is not the worst evil.
It is nice to be clean, but I sometimes think that the only good I
get from money is cleanliness--and that is only a question of
habit! The real point is to be in life, to watch life, to love it,
to live it; to be in direct relations with everyone, not to be
superior, not to be KIND--that implies superiority. I just plod
along, believing, fearing, hoping, loving, glad to live while I
may, not afraid to die when I must. The only detachment worth
having is the detachment from the idea of making things one's own.
I can't appropriate the sunset and the spring, the loves and cares
of others; it is all divided up, more fairly than we think. I have
had many sorrows and sufferings; but I am more interested than ever
in life, glad to help and be helped, ready to change, desiring to
change. It isn't a great way of living; but one must not want that--
and believe me, dear Howard, it is the only way."
VIII
THE INHERITANCE
The first day or two of Howard's stay at Windlow seemed like a
week, the succeeding week seemed like a day, as soon as he had
settled down to a certain routine of life. He became aware of a
continued sympathetic and quite unobtrusive scrutiny of him, his
ways, his tastes, his thoughts, on the part of his aunt--her
questions were subtle, penetrating, provocative enough for him to
wish to express an opinion.
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