You would ask me, perhaps, whether all this time I
enjoy'd any perception of pleasure? I assure you, little or
none, till just towards the latter end, a faintish sense of
it came on mechanically, from so long a struggle and frequent
fret in that ever sensible part; but, in the first place, I
had no taste for the person I was suffering the embraces of,
on a pure mercenary account; and then, I was not entirely
delighted with myself for the jade's part I was playing,
whatever excuses I might have to plead for my being brought
into it; but then this insensibility kept me so much the
mistress of my mind and motions, that I could the better
manage so close a counterfeit, through the whole scene of
deception.
Recover'd at length to a more shew of life, by his ten-
der condolences, kisses and embraces, I upbraided him, and
reproach'd him with my ruin, in such natural terms as added
to his satisfaction with himself for having accomplish'd it;
and guessing, by certain observations of mine, that it would
be rather favourable to him, to spare him, when he some time
after, feebly enough, came on again to the assault, I reso-
lutely withstood any further endeavours, on a pretext that
flattered his prowess, of my being so violently hurt and sore
that I could not possibly endure a fresh trial. He then gra-
ciously granted me a respite, and the next morning soon after
advancing, I got rid of further importunity, till Mrs.
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