I had heard of such things as a
cramp seizing on even the best swimmers, and occasioning
their being drowned; and imagining this so sudden eclipse
to be owing to it, the inconceivable fondness this unknown
lad had given birth to distracted me with the most killing
terrors; insomuch, that my concern giving the wings, I flew
to the door, open'd it, ran down to the canal, guided
thither by the madness of my fears for him, and the intense
desire of being an instrument to save him, though I was
ignorant how, or by what means to effect it: but was it for
fears, and a passion so sudden as mine, to reason? All this
took up scarce the space of a few moments. I had then just
life enough to reach the green borders of the waterpiece,
where wildly looking round for the young man, and missing
him still, my fright and concern sunk me down in a deep
swoon, which must have lasted me some time; for I did not
come to myself till I was rous'd out of it by a sense of
pain that pierced me to the vitals, and awaked me to the
most surprising circumstance of finding myself not only in
the arms of this very same young gentleman I had been so
solicitous to save, but taken at such an advantage in my
unresisting condition that he had actually completed his
entrance into me so far, that weakened as I was by all the
preceding conflicts of mind I had suffer'd, and struck dumb
by the violence of my surprise, I had neither the power to
cry out nor the strength to disengage myself from his stren-
uous embraces, before, urging his point, he had forced his
way and completely triumphed over my virginity, as he might
now as well see by the streams of blood that follow'd his
drawing out, as he had felt by the difficulties he had met
with consummating his penetration.
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