The gentleman, however, no novice in affairs of this
sort, drew near me; and under the pretence of comforting me,
first with his handkerchief dried my tears as they ran down
my cheeks: presently he ventur'd to kiss me: on my part,
neither resistance nor compliance. I sat stock-still; and
now looking on myself as bought by the payment that had been
transacted before me, I did not care what became of my
wretched body: and, wanting life, spirits, or courage to
oppose the least struggle, even that of the modesty of my
sex, I suffer'd, tamely, whatever the gentleman pleased; who
proceeding insensibly from freedom to freedom, insinuated
his hand between my handkerchief and bosom, which he handled
at discretion: finding thus no repulse, and that every thing
favour'd, beyond expectation, the completion of his desires,
he took me in his arms, and bore me, without life or motion,
to the bed, on which laying me gently down, and having me at
what advantage he pleas'd, I did not so much as know what he
was about, till recovering from a trance of lifeless insen-
sibility, I found him buried in me, whilst I lay passive and
innocent of the least sensation of pleasure: a death-cold
corpse could scarce have less life or sense in it. As soon
as he had thus pacified a passion which had too little re-
spected the condition I was in, he got off, and after re-
composing the disorder of my cloaths, employ'd himself with
the utmost tenderness to calm the transports of remorse and
madness at myself with which I was seized, too late, I con-
fess, for having suffer'd on that bed the embraces of an
utter stranger.
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